WHORE!

slut.

if you don't know what i mean.
ignore this.
really.


when you think about it, its some sketch blog, the only thing they can do is figure out if she sent nick pictures.
i highly doubt that the sex emails are real.
who in their right mind wouldn't save that, especially some scummy hacker.
and i m extremely angry.
nicks reputation may never be good again if this gets blown up.
if she pulls him down into this.
i will...i don't know...but seriously, i have lost every ounce of respect i had for her.
i respected her after the 7thngs video cause that took balls.
but now, now she has to start from scratch to get in my good graces.
i know she doesn't need to please everyone but to earn my respect back she has A LOT of shit to clean up.
this is all such a load of shit, srrsly, this hacker, who i am just as angry with, is making me second guess nick, and his purity, only a little. but still. i hate second guessing and the fact that this is making me second guess the ONLY thing in the world that was a constant to me PISSES ME OFF.
GAH!
SCREW HACKERS!
SCUM OF THE WORLD!


i'm done.
a rant was necessary.

jonas post. im sorry im lame.

so.
its the official first day of summer vacation.
and if you are gonna get mad at this for being a jonas post stop reading.
so this is a very jonas oriented summer and i could not be happier about it.
i feel it comng.
idk why.
but seriously im gonna meet and befriend the jonas brothers.
call me naieve.
call me a freak
call me a stalker.
but i, my friend, am none of those things.
im driven; and determined, and i REALLY want to be their friend.
i dont know why, its not for the fame, its cause they feel like my best friends and i want to see if it happens.
:]


alright im done.
but these boys...

are gonna make my summer great.

i am a horrible friend.

i mean really,
even if this isn't my fault.
i shouldn't have.
gar.
this sucks.
i might have cost us all the concert.
idc.
dont make me feel better.
i should feel horrible.
its not fair to everyone else.
especially torrey, i suck.
torrey, if you read this.
im sorry.
it is all my fault.
really it is.
:[[[[[[[



sorry guys.
i suck at friendship.
end of post.

it can happen.

im gonna be optimistic on this one.
reality is it probably won't happen, the numbers are just too strong against me. but i want to try for something i want to be passionate about something again. and this is what its gonna be. im gonna do it. and im gonna go all out. this is what i want. i can't tell you why. but i think it has something to do with proving myself i can do something if i try hard enough. i realize that i am probably the least likely of the three of us, but i dont care. and thats not me fishing for compliments. but yeah im gonna make SOMETHING happen. no matter what, somehtng WILL happen.
gah!
asjdfaslfkjeiwalksfn
SHARE THE TALENT?!


done.

"therapy is a load of shit"

and so is that.
therapy is fantastic.
yes everyone, i'm in it! fun shit but you know what. i love that woman. she made me feel so much better, and really now i know what happened. why i fucked up. and how to fix it. i mean really this woman knows me better than i know myself. but i just thought i would elaborate a little. apparently, i tried to rebel, tried to show my parents that i'm not perfect, and it worked, and now i get to fix it. which i will, and you know how cool this woman is? she basically told me to go drink, try pot, tell my parents im going one place and really go to another. an ADULT SOCIAL WORKER/THERAPIST told me to do that. how insane. gosh i am in a fantastic mood. and i'm pretty sure she can convince my mom to let me have a social life by next weekend.

:D




so yeah.
oh and i think paige is gonna be pregnant on degrassi.
just so you know.
:D

Z100 PICK ME!

DO ITT!

i came here to make you dance tonight

i don't care about my guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

random facts?
i think so.

1. i dance around my house all the time
2. i sing at the top of my lungs
3. i watch baby movies like winnie the pooh
4. i love disney channel
5. no matter how much i dislike miley cyrus, i still rock out to rockstar. its just too catchy
6. i adore gilmore girls
7. i love corny chick books
8. i am ADDICTED to Seventeen and COSMOGirl!
9. i constantly want to buy magazines like Popstar! and TigerBeat but never do
10. now that i am watching hannah monatana, yes i do that sometimes. i dont dislike her as much.
11. sometimes i fish for compliments cause i feel gross. but then i get mad at myself for doing it.
12. i love pop culture.
13. like i love understanding pop references like in gilmore girls that no one else gets.
14. i hate getting yelled at.
15. sometimes i get in homework moods.
16. then i'll do like 3 marge packets and a math ditto in one night.
17. but i usually don't
18. some people think im dumb
19. but im not, and i know im smarter than a lot of people.
20. sometimes i worry that i come off as cocky
21. sometimes i worry too much about what people think of me.
22. i have full arguments in my head with my mother, before i actually have them.
23. cause hse is that predictable and so am i.
24. i have funny toe nails.
25. i really like green.
26. i daydream like crazy.
27. sometimes i secretly hope someone famous will come across my blog or myspace and be like wow she's cool.
28. theres a bird hopping around my heating units outside.
29. i call the heating units R2D2 and C3PO
30. i am a nerdlet
31. i hate procrastinating, but its my life style 100%
32. sometimes i wish i had some sort of visible ethnicity.
33. i love listening to old pop.
34. im listening to aaron carter at the moment.
35. i've never grown out of the backstreet boys, i'll always love those kids.
36. once i like a type of music, i don't stop.
37. i worry that people think im a copy cat, or unoriginal.
38. i hate the fact that my house is messy, but i love when other peoples are.
39. it bothers me that i never have people over cause i live so far from bel air.
40. im actually really good at geometry.
41. im also really good at bs-ing and making things up on the spot.
42. but thats only like with excuses or explanations in class, otherwise im not very creative.
43. i doubt i could ever write lyrics or music.
44. but i really want to.


more later?